relief!?!?!
Alhamdulillah…
I feel the relief finally….
I have said what i’ve wanted to say for all these times… she understands or noe??? that’s the next question buut for now…. relieffff…….
Drowning….
day ?!!?!
Whatsoever… still drowning myself in this sorrow. i cant believe myself!!!
How can people make me feel this way again.. and again….
thought i’ve been strong enough now. but shit… I am.. just what i was…
want to be like others.. feel nothing… pain nothing!
My internet is Back!!!!?!?!
Day 11#
Alhamdulillah…. i can browse and post something again…!!! horaaayyyyy
yet.. nothing to say.. hehee.. so much in my mind.. where should i start?!?!?!
being stupid and foolish lately.. my emotion got over me. getting older doesnt make me getting better.. how to control my feeling? to be calm and confidence and always have clear thoughts.
How? how? how?
Kotaraja - Papua
December 4, 2010 - 11.11 pm
Lucy: Daddy, did God made for you to be like this or was it an accident?
Sam: Ok, what do you mean?
Lucy: I mean you’re different.
Sam: But what do you mean?
Lucy: You’re not like other daddies.
Sam: I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Yeah, I’m sorry.
Lucy: It’s ok, daddy. It’s ok. Don’t be sorry. I’m lucky. Nobody else’s daddy ever comes to the park.
Sam: Yeah! Yeah! Yeah, we are lucky. Aren’t we lucky? Yeah!
“I am SAM” - What’s in a good father?
Day 11#
By the end of the night, I turned on my beloved TV and on HBO I saw this movie again.. and again…
I never have a father for all my life. I don’t even have a clear memory about my dad. I never have a regret about it. Not once. My mother has been a mom and a dad, and she’s been wonderful for all this time.
When I was young, I saw many fathers. Not mine, of course. And guess what? Not so many fathers were good enough to call himself a father. I didn’t see them every day, but every time I noticed them, they were just MEN.They didn’t spend much time with their family. They just provided their family what they needed to stay alive. They didn’t even talk with their children a lot. Said hello and asked what they needed. Nothing so important that made me lucky enough to have a mother who concerned so much on what I really needed.
Then, I watched this movie about a few years ago. Sam was not a GREAT man at all. He had this mental illness. But He had the love as deep as the ocean and as wide as the sky. He loved his daughter in a way you would envy and wish to have a dad like him. He’s not smart and handy… Like many other dads… However he gave all he could to take care of Lucy.
Hopefully, you have a DAD like him. Who loves you and shows it, so you don’t have to question about it. Just by watching him, you are SURE that you are loved by him.
Myself…I look up to myself as a father. I…have had a lot of time, see, to…think about what it is…that makes somebody a good parent…and it’s about constancy…and it’s about…patience, and it’s about listening…and it’s about pretending to listen…even when you can’t listen anymore.And it’s about love, like she said.See, Billy has a home with me…and I made it the best I could.And it’s not perfect…and I’m not a perfect parent…and sometimes I don’t have enough patience…and I forget he’s just a little kid…but we built a life together…and we love each other.
Kotaraja - Papua
November 30, 2010 - 12.36 am
awanhitam asked: hEIII....
baru baca komen sampean soal Orchid Road...
aku ga kesana kalo Orchid Road itu beda ama Orchard Road... :P
but I do like Singapore... it almost surreal to me... :D
maksudku orchad mas.. tapi salah ketik.. maklum sudah ngaktuk banget.. you know what i mean lah.. hahahahaa.. yeah, but the living cost is CRAZYYYYYYYYY…………..
Just Can’t get enough?!!!?
Day 10#
My new hobby…. SINGING…. and karaoke-ing…. hehehe… i dont have that nice voice like many others.. but I just like to sound it out loud in that karaoke room. LOVE it….
Kotaraja - Papua
November 28, 2010 - 11.10 pm
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